“Everything bad that can happen can and will happen in February.” – Me
I hate this month. It is by far my worst month of the year. It’s not that everything just seems to go wrong… it actually does. Most of the relationships I’ve had over the course of my life have ended this month, so I don’t hold these 28 days in a very high regard. It’s winter. It’s cold and miserable. Spring is still weeks away. Hell, the NFL season is over so that is a major downside. I often get sick this time of year (which was the case so far this month). The list goes on and on.
After being sick, I’m tired of being cooped up in this house. However, because it’s February, there is nowhere to go and nothing to do. I’ll be looking forward to start going on job interviews, whether that be here in Pittsburgh or elsewhere. I’m beginning to think that getting out of this town might be the best thing for me, as what little I have here is slowly starting to slip away. I just don’t know anymore… as if I really knew in the first place.
I’m sure if you’ve been reading this blog, you know that these last few months have been very up and down for me. The bright moments have been very few and far between. Just as things start to look up, something comes in a knocks down what little I’ve begun to build. I’ve tried very hard to live by a mantra of “I’ll just keep going and see what happens,” but it’s getting harder and harder to follow. I’m slowly becoming of a mind that love, life and the pursuit of happiness do not reside within the borders of Pittsburgh, but somewhere to the east. We shall see, oh yes, we shall see.
“There is nothing harder than the softness of indifference.” – Juan Montalvo
“Scientists announced today that they have discovered a cure for apathy. However, they claim no one has shown the slightest interest in it.” – George Carlin